Sebastian’s POV
I couldn’t fucking get Iris’s words to Thea out of my head. That day, I’d come home early, hoping to spend some time alone with Thea. What I hadn’t expected was to overhear Iris telling Thea that she had been falling in love with Kane.
That pain was like nothing I’d felt before. I saw red, my wolf howling and nearly taking over. While I’d always hated Thea and Kane’s relationship, I’d convinced myself it was purely physical. Just sex. Nothing more.
The fact that she had been falling in love with him hurt worse than knowing she’d fucked him. Learning she had begun to imagine a future with that man nearly killed me.
I masked my pain with anger. How could I tell her that the mere possibility of her having a shred of love for Kane had shattered my soul into bloody pieces? That kind of pain was too hard to articulate.
The “what ifs” circled relentlessly in my brain, refusing to give me a moment’s peace. I couldn’t help wondering what would have happened if Kane hadn’t tried to kill Thea. Would she be with him now? Would her love for me have been completely replaced by her love for him? Would she have forgotten me entirely, just as she now couldn’t remember others?
“Sebastian!” The shout yanked me back to reality.
I stared at my brother Damien in confusion, not even aware he’d entered my office. I’d been so lost in my thoughts I hadn’t heard him come in.
“What is it?” I straightened the papers in front of me and pushed them aside.
He crossed the room and sat down in front of my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for over five minutes.”
I said nothing. What was there to say? I’d been distracted for days, all because of Thea. She occupied my every waking thought. I was like a junkie craving my favorite drug, completely addicted to her.
She was so deeply embedded in my soul that even if I wanted to, I couldn’t remove her.
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And I wouldn’t–my wolf and I both absolutely claimed her as ours now, and we would never leave her.
“I can see something’s bothering you,” he said, giving me that scrutinizing look I hated.
“Want to share?”
This was hard as fuck. How could I tell him I was so insecure about Thea’s feelings for Kane? I had never been an insecure person, but with Thea, I was. I wasn’t ashamed to
admit that to myself.
I got up restlessly and walked to the floor–to–ceiling windows, staring out at the sun setting over the nearby lake.
“Sebastian.”
Sighing. I turned to face him. “I don’t even know where to start.”
“I’m guessing it’s about Thea?” he asked.
I ran my hand through my hair, messing it up completely.
“Yeah.
“You know you can tell me anything… so what’s wrong?”
I only hesitated for a second before telling him everything. I couldn’t keep this shit inside
anymore. Not when it was driving me fucking insane.
As always, he sat patiently and listened until I finished. He wouldn’t judge or input his
opinion until I was done.
When I finished, I sank back in my chair, watching him. His expression was thoughtful. I was desperate to hear what he had to say, what advice he could offer, because I was about
to lose my goddamn mind.
“From what I’m hearing, you’re still incredibly jealous of Kane,” he said after a moment.
I gave him my dirtiest look. “That’s already fucking obvious.”
“Then what’s the problem? I don’t understand… Kane is in prison, and you’re with Thea. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you some comfort?” he asked, genuinely
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confused.
I clenched my fists in frustration. Exhaled. Tried to explain without losing my shit.
“I know, but I also know Thea. She’s going to insist on seeing Kane no matter what, not only because she wants Phoenix to know her father, but because she wants to know the
man who got her pregnant.”
His eyes locked with mine when he finally understood the root of my problem.
“You’re afraid she’ll fall in love with Kane again, aren’t you?”
“Yes.” I stood up again and started pacing. “Everything’s starting over. There’s nothing hidden, Thea knows the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling for him again? He might have betrayed her, but he never hurt her as deeply as I did.”
My wolf growled in my mind. Kill the threat, mark her, make her completely ours. The impulse was strong, but I knew that wasn’t the solution. I’d made too many mistakes already trying to solve problems with power and control.
I just really didn’t know what I would do if Thea actually fell for Kane again. The possibility terrified me because I loved her so much now, I was afraid of losing her again.
“Well, I think the fact that Kane is in prison should prevent that possibility. I don’t think she’d wait for him to get out. His sentence isn’t short,” Damien said.
“We’re talking about Thea… her love and loyalty know no bounds. I mean, come on, even when I treated her like shit, she continued to love me for years. Do you think if she falls in love with him, she’ll leave him just because he’s in prison?”
He shook his head and sighed. “You’re right,” he admitted.
I exhaled in disappointment.
“Though I do think you shouldn’t worry too much about it,” he continued. “Take it one day at a time, focus on showing her your heart. Love her until the thought of leaving you
would break her.”
With nothing else to do, he was right. Whether she stayed with me or not, that was her choice. All I could do now was love her the best I could.
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I allowed myself to relax, easing the anxiety in my heart. It felt like a boulder had been lifted from my shoulders.
I was just starting to unwind when my phone rang.
“What is it?” I answered, not bothering to check the caller ID.
“Sebastian, something’s happened.”
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