Aurora’s POV
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The past few weeks had fucked me up beyond repair, and it wasn’t just the prison time. Was I okay? Hell no. My life had spiraled into such a chaotic mess I couldn’t even begin to untangle it.
I once had a clear path–a purpose, a goal–to win Sebastian back and become his Luna. That dream was like my wolf, a reason for my existence. For that, I’d tried my ass off to become the best she–wolf in the Sterling Pack, and goddess, I’d even become a fucking lawyer because of him. Because I’d believed that one day, Sebastian would file for divorce from Thea, and I would be there to support him. I was convinced Thea would fight tooth and nail to hold onto him, and I’d step in to battle her because I never lost a case. I was the best damn divorce attorney around.
The fucked–up thing was, the moment Sebastian threw me in jail, those fantasies shattered. Now I was like a Rogue without a Pack, directionless and without purpose.
I pushed myself up from the bed and walked to my vanity, staring at the woman in the mirror, barely recognizing her. Where was the perfect princess who’d made the entire Pack proud? In her place stood a gaunt, pale stranger with hollow eyes.
Unable to look at this broken version of myself any longer, I sighed and turned toward the window, gazing out, hoping to find some peace and solace there.
I should have seen it sooner. The truth had been right in front of me, and I’d refused to accept it. I mean, how could you live with someone for seven years if you didn’t have feelings for them?
Sebastian’d had so many chances to leave. He could have ditched her right after Leo was born, but he didn’t. Why? We all thought Sebastian would be the one to file for divorce, but in the end, it was Thea who initiated it, shocking everyone… If she hadn’t spoken up first, that meant they might still be together now.
The more I thought about it, the clearer it became. All signs pointed to one fact. Sebastian was never a puppet Alpha. He’d chosen to marry Thea, chosen to live with her for all those years, chosen to stay–all his own decisions–because some part of him knew he couldn’t let go of her. That’s why even after the divorce, he couldn’t stay away from
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her.
“Aurora?” My mom’s voice interrupted my spiraling thoughts.
She’d entered without knocking, her privilege since I’d been staying at the her house ever since my release.
“What is it, Mom?”
She frowned, her nose wrinkling in distaste. “You really need to take a shower, Aurora.
You smell terrible.”
I didn’t respond, just sat back down on the bed and looked at her. She must have had a
reason for coming, so I’d just wait for her to get to it.
“I’m worried about you,” her tone softened, “You’ve been shutting yourself in here since
you got back, and Roman can’t even get in touch with you. It’s not healthy.”
How could I tell her that my wolf was close to giving up on me? That I couldn’t even find a basic reason for existing anymore. But saying these things would only disappoint her.
“I just need time, Mom,” my voice sounded foreign and hoarse, “Some things I need to figure out for myself.”
“I know this is hard for you right now,” she sat down beside me, “But I promise, when you
give yourself a chance, new paths will open. Your wolf will guide you to find new
direction.”
Her words hit home, and tears started falling uncontrollably. I leaned my head against her shoulder, soaking in her motherly warmth.
“I don’t know how to move forward,” I whispered, “I’ve been lost for so long. These past years I’ve just been pretending to be strong, but I was never happy.”
“Why not start by making amends for your mistakes? That might bring you the peace you clearly need.”
I clenched my jaw, my nails nearly breaking the skin of my palms. I wanted to argue with her, but I knew she was right. Maybe this was the new purpose I needed.
“Thanks, Mom.”
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“I know I’ve been hard on you these past months, but I hope you understand I was
pushing you for your own good,” she rubbed my back in that comforting way she used to
when I was little.
“I know.”
Mom kissed my forehead, then separated from me and stood up.
“Well, I’ll let you rest, but remember to take that shower. Trust me, it’ll make you feel
better.”
I nodded, and she left, closing the door behind her. I sat there for a moment, staring blankly into space.
A sudden impulse gripped me, and I immediately stood up and rushed to my closet,
changing into workout clothes. I grabbed my keys and bolted out of the room, hearing my mom calling after me, but I didn’t look back.
I didn’t want to go to my place in the city–it would only remind me of the times I’d spent
with Sebastian, those movie nights and dinners. He never stayed overnight, but those few
hours with him there had felt like heaven.
I made a mental note to list the place for sale as soon as possible.
I slid into my car, starting the engine. No destination in mind, just wanting the wind to
clear the fog in my head. I sped down the highway, much like my wolf would run aimlessly through the forest.
I’d been driving for who knows how long when I stopped and looked around, shocked to
find myself in front of Jaxon’s house.