I stared at the liquid in my glass, hesitated for a moment, then downed it all and poured myself another.
“Thea,” I said her name like it explained everything.
Damien frowned. “I thought you said she gave you a chance, that she wasn’t asking about the truth. What stupid thing did you do now?”
I glared at him. “Why do you always assume it’s my fault?”
I fucking knew it was my fault, but damn it, why did he immediately assume I was the problem?
He rolled his eyes like a child and replied, “Because when it comes to Thea, you always fuck things up.”
I was about to argue, but I shut my mouth. He was right, wasn’t he? I couldn’t argue because he wasn’t wrong. Until a few months ago, I’d been making one mistake after
another in my relationship with Thea.
“Since you know I’m right, why don’t you tell me what happened? Did you mess up during the date or something?” he prodded.
“The date was great, and she loved it,” I admitted, taking another sip.
“Then I guess you fucked up after the date?” he asked, his eyes studying mine.
“Actually, it’s because of what I said to her before. Somehow, seeing me masturbate in the
shower triggered her memory, and now she doesn’t even want to look at me.”
I began telling him everything. Every single thing that happened, and how Aurora had
deceived me and manipulated me into believing Thea was the bad guy. I told him, word for word, what I’d yelled at Thea in anger, and how it had come back to haunt me.
“You’re a fucking idiot,” Damien told me when I finished.
I glared at him, but I accepted the truth: “I fucking know.”
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Chapter 272
We were silent again, but it didn’t last long.
“Have you talked to her or apologized?” he asked, raising an eyebrow.
I exhaled and shook my head. “She won’t talk to me. She won’t even let me near her. She avoids me like I’m the fucking plague.”
“Did you mean those things you said to her?” he asked, watching my reaction carefully.
“No.” My answer was automatic. “I was angry at her, wanted to hurt her because I thought she had hurt Aurora, but deep down, every word I said was a lie. I never compared her to Aurora, and I never imagined Aurora when I was with her. I said those things because I knew they would hurt her.”
“And what gave you the stupid idea to lie to her?” he asked while sipping his drink.
I shrugged. “I don’t know… stupidity? It’s not an excuse, but you know I say stupid shit when I’m angry.”
“I can’t give you any solutions because those words might be forever imprinted in her mind. But what you can do is talk to her, make her listen, and tell her the truth before all
this ruins what you’re trying to build,” he advised.
I understood what he was saying, but it was hard to do when she wouldn’t speak to me.
I continued drinking. Orion, after cursing me out, now sulked in the back of my mind, refusing to talk to me just like Thea. I chased that buzz, that feeling of floating away from
all the pain, while hoping I could still salvage what I’d broken.
I had to find a way to make Thea understand the truth–not for me, but for her. Because if
I ever meant anything to her, she deserved to know that the words that had hurt her were complete lies. The challenge now was getting her to listen to me.
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