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Thea’s POV
My hands trembled slightly as I scrubbed the dust from the floor, my pregnancy- heightened sense of smell making the cleaning chemicals almost nauseating. But I stubbornly continued cleaning anyway, desperate to keep my mind from wandering. I was still struggling to accept the reality of my pregnancy.
When Sebastian had refused the idea of us having another child, I’d practically given up hope of ever giving Leo a sibling. Now I had another pup growing inside me and didn’t know how to feel about it.
My phone rang, Iris’s name flashing on the screen. A few weeks ago, I would’ve ignored it completely, but today was different. Pushing away people who cared about me wasn’t
doing me any good.
“Hey, Iris,” I said softly as I sat down.
I’d been so fucking tired lately. I should have realized it wasn’t just fatigue.
“Goddamn it, Thea, you finally answered! I thought you wouldn’t pick up,” she said loudly through the phone, then sniffled. “I’ve missed your voice. It’s been weeks since I heard it.”
“I’m sorry,” I exhaled. “I just didn’t know how to deal with everything, so I pushed you
away.”
I was never good at expressing emotions or even acknowledging them. Probably because I’d learned to hide my true feelings in the Sterling household from an early age. There, showing vulnerability meant more contempt. So I’d shut down, tried to bury them. But
now I realized that bottling up emotions only made things worse, like licking wounds
alone only made them fester.
“Are you okay now?” she asked.
“Not completely, but I’m getting there,” I said, my hand unconsciously moving to my
stomach.
I wasn’t sure what I was going to do, but I would come out stronger from all this. I couldn’t help remembering standing at the edge of that cliff, the urge to end it all. My
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brain had been so consumed by despair and fear that I’d forgotten the most basic thing about being a mother wolf–protecting your pups above all else. This child was my pup just like Leo, and I’d already decided to be a good mother. I was going to be the best damn mother this kid could have.
“I’m pregnant,” I told her softly after a moment of silence.
“What?” she shrieked in surprise, “When did you find out?”
“About a week ago.”
Just like Leo, this baby came suddenly and unplanned. But that wouldn’t stop me from
loving him or her. I’d always wanted another child. I might not like the father right now,
but that wasn’t the child’s fault.
“Oh honey, congratulations,” her tone filled with joy once the shock wore off.
“You sound happy about the news. I thought you wouldn’t be, considering who the father
is.”
“Life is always a blessing, Thea. I truly believe this child is a gift from the Moon Goddess. When you were drowning, when you needed hope the most, she sent this life to you, to pull you out of the darkness. It’s your salvation.” I heard emotion clogging her voice.
I thought about what she said, and it was true. It was because of Leo and this child that I wanted to get better. That I was willing to accept the help I needed.
“Thank you for trying, Iris. Even when I kept pushing you away, you kept trying. You never gave up on me,” I was nearly in tears, every little thing making me emotional now.
“You’re my best friend. More like the sister I never had. Of course I wouldn’t give up on you, because I know if our roles were reversed, you’d do the same.”
We talked for a while longer, staying away from heavy topics. By the time we finally ended the call, I felt a lightness I hadn’t experienced in ages. I hadn’t realized how much I’d missed her. How fucking lonely I’d been these past weeks. I felt more like myself now. Not completely healed, but getting there.
I continued cleaning, and had just finished the living room when I heard the front door open.
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I frowned. Who the hell would enter my house without knocking or ringing the bell?
“Mom! Mom! I’m home!” My question was answered when I heard his sweet voice.
A huge smile spread across my face as I stood up. I rushed out of the living room just in time to see him bolt in from the entryway.