Book 2: Chpt 15: Fate is Cruel
Chapter 15: Fate is Cruel
An Jieun
Why. It’s the only word I’m screaming in my head. Why is my kind being hunted? Why am I the unlucky one? Why? I just want to roam the forest; I don’t want any of this. I don’t want to be a Luna. I don’t want to fight witches. Why do I have to have two hearts?
All I could do to stop myself from screaming was focus on my clenched fist in my lap. The harder I tightened the more my nails dug in and that little bit of pain kept me from losing it.
“Grandmother, could we meet later this afternoon or evening to finish working out a plan? We haven’t slept all night and I’m not sure I can give you my best.” Alpha Gideon seemed awkward
calling Ithildin grandmother. I thanked him in my head. All I wanted was to leave this room.
“Yes, my dear child.” Ithildin stood up then everyone else did. “Amelie I’d like to examine the boys if you don’t mind.”
“Sure grandmother.” Amelie picked up one of the babies from the floor.
I was frozen. I just watched as this family fawned over these babies and small children. Is this what a family looks like? Is this how they interact with each other? Would my mother have picked me up so
affectingly when I was a baby?
“Ummm An Jieun…ummm do you want to go lie down?” James was stumbling over his tongue and
seemed nervous for some reason.
“Yes.” I nodded and stood up. As soon as I stood all eyes turned to me. My heart started racing. I hid behind James using him as my shield once again.
We quickly left the room. I didn’t even look up as we walked down the hallways, I didn’t want to make eye contact with anyone. I was so full of so many different feelings, emotions, and thoughts. I was so exhausted, but I didn’t know if I would be able to sleep.
We reached a room and James opened the door and we went in. I sat on the bed with my head in my hands, trying to calm down. James‘ feet come into view. I look up and his face is red. Why is he still in my room? I thought he left
after opening the door for me.
Before I could say a word there was a knock at the door. James steps over to answer it and the two small girls from earlier rush in as soon as the door is cracked.
“Hi! I’m Daisy this is my sister Rose. I’m the oldest by 2 minutes.” Two little faces are looking up at me with sandy blond hair, freckles, and bright green eyes. “What’s your name? Are you our new ant?
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We saw you. You’re different, you are a puppy and a fox. Can you turn into a fox for us?” C
“Girls! What did I tell you about manners when we met new people?” Amelie huffed at the girls, but they didn’t seem to care because they just giggled. The quiet one climbed up on the bed next to me. While the bubbly one danced around in front of me.
“You’re scared it’s OK. We are family now. Just like how mommy came to us and she’s our mommy now.” Was this little child trying to comfort me? I was feeling more confused than before.
“OK, girls how about you have Uncle James show you, his puppy.” Amelie looked at James with a
sinister smile.
“Wait Am” James looked upset, but I didn’t know why.
“No, be a good uncle and watch your nieces for me.” Amelie’s tone was direct and forceful. It made James seem like a pup rather than an Alpha heir.
“I’m so tired can I do it later.” Does James become a child in the presence of his family? I’m so confused about who he is. Which of these personalities is his true self? Is it the strong assertive Alpha, the nervous but caring mate, or this oversized pup whining and taking orders from his sister?
“Nope. Go.” Amelie points to the door and the little girls giggle.
Fine. Come on girls.” James picks up the little girl next to me, clear frustration on his face as he huffs and walks out the door.
I’m left with just Amelie. She’s just standing looking at me, I don’t know what to say or do. I can’t read if she’s upset or happy. I’m so confused about my feelings right now I can’t be concerned with somebody elses. She cautiously steps towards me and sits beside me on the bed.
Suddenly her expression softened, confusing me more. She reaches for my hand, and I quickly pull it away, Amelie just smiles at me. “I know I haven’t been properly introduced yet, but I know all about you from my mate Gideon. I’m James’s older sister as you already know.”
I only nod. Why is she telling me this? Kwan is surprisingly silent. I can feel her emotions pulsing in and out. We were both processing everything.
“Oh my gosh, that little brat brother of mine. As much as I complain and nag at him, he’s a good guy. It’s absolutely hilarious to watch him fumble around about you.” She laughs, but I am not in the mood to laugh. I sit, quietly waiting for her to leave so I can be alone. I’m used to being alone. “James will always protect you. He will always put you first. He might fumble about not knowing what he’s doing but you’re his most important person now. Trust that he is trying his best.”
I nod my head again. I just want to be left alone. I’m hoping she’ll just leave soon.
“I need you to know I understand you more than you realize. I know how hard it is to be mistreated
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by the people that are supposed to care for you. It must have been so hard, your entire life. Please know that you are safe now, no one I promise you, no one will ever harm you again.” Amelle patted my shoulder, and I could see the pain in her eyes, deep pain, that’s lingered for a long time,
It was like I was in a trap, and I couldn’t stop looking into her eyes, looking at that pain. She didn’t turn away, it was like she was showing me all her scars. Her Shoulder patting moved to my back. She started rubbing my back in a circular motion like a mother would comfort a child. I never
experienced anyone trying to comfort me my entire life. There’s so much that has happened in this
short time span. I don’t know where to start everything comes back bubbling up to the surface and
tears. Tears I have not shed in years since I was a small child, come streaming down my face. A monsoon of tears and soon Amelie’s arm is wrapped around my shoulder. I bury my head into her collarbone, I just cry.
Everything I felt over the last 18 years just comes storming out of me. All the loneliness, all of the pain, the fear, the hatred, the longing it all comes out. Kwan and I have always hidden away these feelings, relying on but resisting each other has left us more alone than we would like to admit to
each other.
“It’s OK you’re going to be OK.” Amelie wraps me in her arms. I finally understand what it’s like for the first time to truly be comforted.
I continued to cry and cry and cry. I cried myself to sleep, like a newborn baby. Maybe my mind will clear after I sleep.
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She has no way of understanding what comforting and love is. it is all new to her. poor
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